My Future - Deciding on a Major

I've been running my mind away! ;) Now that I've finished the Pathway Program and have started my one BYU-Idaho online class, I have been pondering about my future and what my future has in store for me. I have so many dreams and things I want to accomplish while I am alive on this earth, but I wonder if my Heavenly Father has a different plan for me than what I originally wanted in my life. It kind of scares me because I don't know what He expects of me. I don't know what He wants me to major in college. I don't know when Chris and I will start having children. I don't know what other trials and temptations will attempt to stop me on my path.

I'm not going to lie. My future frightens me to death. It doesn't have to scare me, though. I should be looking forward to the future. Our prophet, President Thomas S. Monson, once stated, "Your future is as bright as your faith." I have a lot of faith in my Heavenly Father and His plan for me. I have faith in myself, knowing that I can do it without being scared of what the future holds. I know that if I am true to the gospel, if I attend the temple and do what I am supposed to, I will receive answers. The only problem is that I am so impatient! I want to know things right away (that's one of my many flaws that I need to work on).

Now that I am officially enrolled in BYU-Idaho, I have been thinking quite a bit about what I should major in in college. I wanted to be an occupational therapist assistant. Basically, I would be helping patients with physical therapy. I thought that would be interesting. I have also thought about being a medical assistant. I would like others to be well and healthy. The other day, I was talking with my mom about what I should major in. She said that if I really wanted to become an occupational therapist assistant, I would have to take a lot of difficult courses. I would have to take microbiology, metaphysics, and other hard classes that I don't really have an interest in taking. I don't really care for science plus, it's harder for me to learn all at once. After I heard all the classes that I was supposed to take to earn that specific degree, I tried to rethink my decision. My mom suggested to me that I should major in marriage and family studies. So I prayed and pondered long and hard about it. I also researched it a little and it sounds perfect for me. It focuses on the importance of home and family. The goal is to teach doctrine, principles, theory, and skills to help maintain and strengthen the home as the most effective institution in society for impacting the well-being of the family unit.

The one thing that I have ever truly wanted to be is a mom. I want to have children and raise them to be good kids. Marriage and family studies ties right into that category. I have been getting baby hungry because I see some of the friends and others that I went to high school with are married and have kids of their own now (I feel so left out!), but I know it will happen when it is supposed to happen. Maybe I need to learn how to be a better wife to Chris before I can be a good mother to our children. All I can say is that I know Heavenly Father knows what He's doing and I should just trust Him.

It's funny how our decisions on what we want to be can change in an instant. I guess I really don't have to decide now if this is what I want to be. There are so many options to choose from in this world. I just hope I make the right option for me and my family.

Heavenly Father wants all of our dreams to come true. He wants us to be happy. He wants us to pursue our dreams no matter what the obstacles. He knows what we want to accomplish and what we are capable of. I'm so grateful I have a Heavenly Father who's interested in my future and in my well-being. I'm thankful that He knows what I want to do with my life even if that means it's not what I'm supposed to do with my life.